Warning: I am drunk, exhasted, alone, and its Tuesday night. Wait, IS it Tuesday?
I am declaring Tuesday my new FAVORITE day! “Why?” you ask all bewildered. “What is so special about Tuesday? Its not the weekend, its not taco night and its TUESDAY!?” Well, let me set the record straight.
I lobve Tuesday because its Tuesday RIGHT NOW, Im slightly inebriated (well no, Im drunk), everyone in my house is asleep except me, and Ive got good PVRed TV. Ha!
Pathetic, yes. Reality, yes!!
I have been going non stop for weeks being the one caregiver for our kids, AND taking care of my wonderful Hubby as he recovers from cancer related surgery. I’ve been working out 6 days a week, dieting healthy, baking cupcakes, skipping/jump-roping (HONESTLY its HARD!!) non stop for 5 mins 2 times a day, cleaning, cooking, baking cupcakes, cleaning, being a nurse, creating memories for my girls, missing my mom, baking cupcakes, being a pharmacist, vacuuming (OH LORD THE VACUUMING!!), dancing, juggling, drinking coffee, and sleeping.
Ive been going NON STOP. And you know what? Im exhausted! Physically, emotionally, and maybe even spritually (well, no probably not, but It feels like a good thing to put on the list. Lets chalk that one up to the alcohol).
Im spent (I actually just said that out loud with a terrible british accent. Feel free to laugh at me, its warranted). Im done done done!!!
So, tonight, I grabbed a bottle of my favourite summer wine, snuggled up on the couch with my wonderful (however gimpy) husband and we enjoyed a cathartic evening of Tuesday night TV. I, for the record, LOVE the Tuesday night line up. Drama, comedy, Glee (where does it fit in?). Laughs, smiles, tears, giggles, and even a stupid love grin (0r 5!). I snuggled and cuddled, and for the first time in a LONG time, I felt relaxed. I felt like there was nowhere to be, no one to let down, nothing to juggle. I was relaxed (I have a sneaking suspicon the bottle of wine had something to do with that, ha).
I needed tonight! I REEEEEEEEALLLY needed tonight. Ive been working so hard to ‘keep it together’ for so many weeks I hardly knew how to unwind. After a good snuggle, I tucked Steve into bed, dragged my significantly smaller bum (Yes! 40 lbs smaller) bum back to the couch, put my feet up, and cried. No. Sobbed. Cried and cired and cried!
I needed the cry as much as I needed the downtime. Im not one to admit Im falling apart, but I am. Well, maybe I was… I think Im rebuilding right now… I think the falling apart is over… I REALLY hope the falling apart is over.
And once I finished my pity party I turned the TV back on. I watched ‘The New Girl” which instantly lifted my mood (it was the douchbag jar that sealed the deal and made my LOVE the show… I can think of a few guys that need one of those!!) and I made a declaration.
TUESDAY NIGHT IS MYYYYYYY NIGHT! As my world falls apart around me OR as it improves exponentially, I am going to hang up my ‘mom’ and ‘wife’ hats on Tuesday night and just enjoy being ME. Im going to put my feet up, Im going to enjoy a beer, and Im going to let everything else wait until tomorrow (well, almost everything. You never really get to stop being a mom… especially with one teething and the other with monsters under the bed). I feel liberated, empowered, and… drunk.
Eeek. Only 5 hours till the alarm goes off, I pack up the 2 kids and gimpy husband, drive in rush-hour traffic to St. Pauls Hospital DOWNTOWN, and meet with the surgeon about Steve’s next surgery and his oncologist about radiation treatment. I should sleep, its going to be a LONG one.
I hope you enjoyed my rant. Is it a rant? More of a declaration, right? No, hmmm. An unloading… a confession…. a…..??? Whatever.
I LOVE TUESDAY NIGHT! You are always welcome here on a Tuesday night as long as you wanna kickback, relax, and you don’t expect me to do anything 
ps. Steve just popped his head in the living room and told me that if I drunk dial any of my ex’s he’s gunna tickle metill I pee. Romantic no? What a goof. We’ve been together for 13 years, since I was 15, how many ex’s do I have to call?? HAAAAAAAAA!!
